adrenaline rush

I don't know why but giving oral gives me a great surge of excitement--a rush of blood to the head, if you will. When there is that great ejaculation of spontaneous release you feel nervous, relieved, excited, and I'm talking about the IB English IOC, obviously ... but I wasn't *giggle giggle* IOC = Internal Oral Commentary

So it was the day before my big important IOC, and I hadn't read all of the Poe stories we could've been assessed on. Yeah, I know what you're thinking I'm "slack", "lazy" and "has really silky smooth hands", and in my defence I have this to say, "uh, yes, okay. agreed." Last night I wasn't able to sleep because I felt that I wouldn't be able to wake up in time for school unless I stayed up the entire night (I know that lacks ummmm reasonable logic, but, like the narrator from The Tell-Tale Heart, the disease/lack of sleep increased my abilities). Having started reading all of the Poe stories at around 1, I managed to finish reading and working out my main ideas on each text before 5. I probably should've started earlier but I have a timetable where I have "free-time" until 6PM lol because I'm cool and generous to myself--then after free time I fell asleep, then woke up and had to watch Gossip Girl. I know there were other extracts not written by Poe that I could've been assessed on, but I was secretly really hoping I didn't get Much ado about nothing, and it turns out that I have strong wishpower (not recommended for everyone), although I did look over the story to some extent. What I really didn't want in the IOC were three poems by Bruce Dawe--"A Victorian Hangman Sends His Love", "Burial Ceremony", and "Butterworth Road". Mostly because I hadn't studied any of them extensively and the Poe texts were still fresh in my mind. I ended up getting Butterworth Road, and I know a lot of people would be thinking "wtf Musu is a douche. Butterworth Road is easy. It is like the easiest of easy things out of all the easiest things to ever do (besides your mum). Reh reh reh". This is why I'm usually careful never to display any kind of expertise in anything, in case it makes other people feel bad, because usually when people do it around me, I end up feeling bad. I know its probably perceived to be easier, but everyone is an individual [except for people + their doppelgangers lol] and most people are mostly capable of independent thought or having their own opinion. Overall, I think it went okay, but I did have a few major lapses in consistent speech :S It was exciting though n_n and now I can finally sleep.